I cant find my diary, excuse me.

Weirdly I've yet come across that feeling that I want to write. From time to time I would scribble here and there on various notebooks. Depending on the occasion, usually for moments I wish to re-lived. I've decided, today I'm gonna ramble. Do excuse me.

I've turned from a writer to someone with no words. Drastic? Maybe. I found the beauty of unspeakable words through photos. Everytime I catch up with Hilwa, she would mention to my old posts back in 2008, before everyone left, says she. We then would talk about our days together. Up to the silliest details. I miss you girls terribly.

Lately I've been reminiscing through photos. it seems that I've pushed aside many memories. Because it hurts. Funny thing was, few days back Ahmed came to me saying his life is filled with unexpected events to ruin his supposedly happy times. And its just frustrating and how it effects the rest of the upcoming days. I then shared with him this thing I did since I broke up with K. To live by the day. Waking up every morning and finding something to be happy with. Take it bit by bit. After a while you dont have to try, your brain's accustomed to it. Hence my memory lapse on certain things.

Life's been good lately. Not on all aspects, but I shall not be unthankful and keep complaining. I have reasons to be happy and thankful. On certain things, I'm very much contented, have things to look forward to. I'd like to write all the reasons for my contentment, but I'll save it for my butterfly notebook.

My sister just graduated and is sitting for her SPM. We're finally moving near Tokche's. There's a new addition to the family, Anas bananas (well he turned one a month ago, still!). There's a He that gives my heart weird flips. Mom and Dad. How I actually like being in Egypt now. The forever by my side girlfriends.

There's so much thoughts stored in my head. Sadness, frustration, anger, happiness and merely unimportant things I'd like to get them out. Everytime I type I will press the backspace key. It's not spring cleaning time yet I guess. Have a wonderful weekend everyone.